[backdated: January]

[every_blossom_blooming]

Nina woke up one morning and she felt it. Her power was back. She lay there in bed, controlling her own heart because she could. She grinned and stretched lazily, luxuriating in feeling herself again. Then she sat bolt upright and flung herself out of bed. She stumbled in her room - it was early, for her. She threw on a robe and pushed her feet into a pair of felted slippers on her way to the door.

She belted the robe tightly down her waist as she hurried down the stairs. She had to grab the rail to keep from sliding as she took corners.

She already felt guilty, wondering if Dutch was there, and she decided that if she was, Nina was going to send a box of apology pastries for banging on Matthias's door.

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[every_blossom_blooming]

"You certainly weren't thrilled to find out you had them." She remembered the look of horror on his face, and the notion that he would just find a way to sit on his hands for as long as it lasted.

"You know I've had them since I was a child. I wish you had trusted me with them, to help you get used to them." Nina hated losing her power, but she could have at least helped Matthias. Even if a lot of things about Grisha still troubled him.

[someones_monster]

"Nina..." Matthias frowns, not knowing how to explain it to her. She won't understand no matter how hard she tries or how close she comes in the end. She knows his culture, but she hasn't lived it. She knows the drüskelle, but she wasn't raised by them.

"It isn't that easy for me," he finally says, because what else is there?

[every_blossom_blooming]

"It isn't easy for us, either." Nina sighed, and she supposed she was being a bit too harsh. She gave Matthias a smile.

"I know it must have been very difficult for you to feel... like I do all the time. Or at least, like I did when I was a little girl. And honestly, when I didn't have my powers at all... I was scared. I don't know what would have happened if you hadn't found me the night it happened."