Nina Zenik (
every_blossom_blooming) wrote2018-07-19 12:31 am
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Nina stood outside the apartment door for far too long, staring at it. She was being a coward and she didn't know why. Maybe because some part of her was afraid that Inej would disapprove, or judge her, or--
She didn't know. But Inej was her best friend, and somehow she was the hardest person to tell. Her opinion would mean the most.
Finally she made herself knock and put on a smile. No need to be grim when Inej answered the door. At least she was certain that Kaz wasn't home. She didn't need him hearing this before she told Geralt.
She didn't know. But Inej was her best friend, and somehow she was the hardest person to tell. Her opinion would mean the most.
Finally she made herself knock and put on a smile. No need to be grim when Inej answered the door. At least she was certain that Kaz wasn't home. She didn't need him hearing this before she told Geralt.
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She turns and goes to the fridge, getting the iced tea, and then to the cabinet to get two glasses. She makes them each tea, and then hands Nina one of them.
"You're not alone," she assures. "Even in a worst case scenario, you're not alone, Nina Zenik."
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Nina sighed and accepted her tea, grateful to have something to hold. "Good. Because as wonderful as I am, I would rather not be a mother alone, if it's to come to that."
She sipped her tea, still rather deep in thought. "Now I just need to tell Geralt. I suppose there's no sense in delaying it. I already know, and if I try to hide it, he'll sniff out that I'm concealing something sooner or later, even if I'm careful."
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Inej is consumed with anguish and jealousy, but that's for her to work through, not Nina. She pours herself her own glass of tea and smiles.
"You'll have me, no matter what," she assures. "You would always have me no matter what."
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But she didn't think it would come to that.
Nina looked at her tea. "I know I have you. And I also know you're upset, even if you're trying very hard not to be. I love you for that right now."
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“I’m not upset at you,” she distinguishes, because it is something to distinguish. She is upset, but not with Nina. Never with Nina. Her smile is raw and rare but it is real. “I get to be an aunt, and a life is holy and wonderful.”
Inej sniffles a little, sips her tea. “I’d like one, some day.”
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"I cried when I realized, you know. I felt silly. I felt stupid. I'm a Heartrender, and this still happened because I was a silly girl. I cried because I thought Zoya was right."
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She lets herself be mad at Zoya, wherever she is, for putting the idea of Nina's silliness into her head too hard. But then, Inej thinks her mother would also have called her silly if she'd managed to get in the family way without getting married first. But things happened sometimes.
She wouldn't dream of asking if Nina plans on getting married. That's hardly the point here.
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"I suppose all that's left is to tell him and go from there. And hope that you'll, eventually, want to help me nest a little."
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"Of course I will," Inej says. "Anyway you'd like help nesting, of course."
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"I suppose you can tell Kaz, though it'd be more fun if no one told him at all. Just to see his face as he tries to figure out how to ask if I'm pregnant when I actually start showing."
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She's sad that their relationship is contentious in Darrow, but she understands why. Their friendship, such as it was, leaned toward business. Inej desperately wants Nina to see the man that she has, in fits and starts in Ketterdam and now, more and more in Darrow, but she knows the history of their arrangement makes it hard.
So she smiles a little and teases. "You know he wouldn't ask. He'd just let it happen and awkwardly hover on the edges of things. I have to tell him or he'll just be strange about it."